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[29 Dec 2009|12:45am] [ mood | tired ] im twenty today! my friends will second that

I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker. [21 Dec 2009|02:09am] [ mood | anxious ] everyone's sleeping & i would write this down on paper if i had some but im not home and this is the best that ive got. i can't sleep but im exhausted. i can't believe the emotional mess ive gotten myself into. it's way too late to come out of this without any bruises or bumps. im fucking lost dude. I dont know how any of this happened, and i could never explain it to anyone. i want to believe in something that just can't possibly be real. i should have been too proud, like i use to be, but i let it all go when i met him. and he wasn't ready to. now im in this situation that i have to look in the face everyday, because for one reason or another, we can't stay away from eachother. i guess my reasons for it are different. i need to get the fuck out of here. I know i always say that, but it's the only thing that will clear my head. Its the only the thing that will keep me away from him. i wish i couldnt make my own choices because i always make the wrong one when it comes to this. the sick part is i know this. i knew it all along. i always knew how it would end. i keep thinking this is the end. but it just keeps going, it's killing me but at the same time it's what i want. I know none of this makes any sense. i don't try and make sense of it. Im completely miserable, and ive never been happier.  and i know ill let it all go on, i'll keep my mouth shut, and i'll swallow my pride just to keep him from leaving. I dont ever want him to leave. my friends will second that

[04 Jun 2006|06:04pm] Back to friends only. [4] this ain't where it's at my friends will second that

[03 Jun 2006|09:16am] [ mood | worried ] im beside myself. [1] this ain't where it's at my friends will second that

[30 May 2006|06:00pm] [ mood | calm ] its been 20 days since my last entry.  Life is good when you're in love. P.S. i hate when my friends flirt with my boyfriend. [1] this ain't where it's at my friends will second that

[10 May 2006|02:15pm] [ mood | tired ] My weekend was good. Friday I hung out with vinnie for a little, then NIKKI  slept over.  we went to cat's softball game, hung out with char and fonsie. Then we had a little cinco de mayo fiesta with marisa.  We all talked about so much. Saturday Nikki and I tanned, and then we went to china buffet with my brother & his friend. Picked up vinnie. Cat & charlie came over. Then Rj. we all played mad video games forever. I missed nikki so much, and like it feels like nothing has ever changed we just go back to our normal selves. Sunday i had court practice for geeter's sweet 16. It's so fun practicing. I can't wait, it's saturday! Friday is our GYM CREW sleepover, oh my gawd i can't wait. i love vinnie so much. that is all. my friends will second that

[04 May 2006|07:47pm] [ mood | cheerful ] today is me & vinnie's 3 months, and i've never been happier.  :D gym crew is back, YES. just fucking, HOORAY! [1] this ain't where it's at my friends will second that

[24 Apr 2006|03:46pm] [ mood | bouncy ] So lately my life has been going like this: I never get to spend any time with cat, and i really miss her. Me & krissi got closer after our vacation & shiit, but now i don't see her either :-[. ............& I MISS FONSIE CHAR JOE & DAN TOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. ME & MICHELLE ARE BACK TOGETHER. AND SO ARE ME AND SANDRA. I've been spending lots of time with my muffinface, and i love it<3. ROY CHI IS MY NIGGUH. nikki is MIA! AND I NEED HER! i'm leaving for florida on thurs. AGAIN. Yesterday we had a court meeting for Al's sweet 16, and we learned our little dance & it was so funnnn wahooooo. i'm leaving right now, to get an application so i can work with roybaby and matty g !! YAHAHHSADHFUAH!!!!!!!!! I'M in A gOoOd MoOoD cAN yeW tEll?? [2] this ain't where it's at my friends will second that

stooooop it. [16 Apr 2006|11:37pm] [ mood | cheerful ] yesterday, i beached it with vinniebaby. it was cute. and wonderful. & ilovehim. [5] this ain't where it's at my friends will second that

[14 Apr 2006|05:57pm] [ mood | frustrated ] So, i just got back from florida yesterday, with krissi.  It was beautiful, and i will post pictures later.  when i got home cat & charlie came over :D love them, missed em a lot. Then vin came over, and i was so happy to see him. I missed him so much. uhm, i'll right more about my trip later, i'm in a really bad mood. my friends will second that

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